UGH!

Okay, I put it off and put it off but I must relent! My concern on a blog is that somebody is going to see how much I am losing my mind. Today, my blog might sing of God's love for me and how I know He hears me and knows my innermost parts, but tomorrow might find me stricken with grief and feeling forgotten by my God. Alas, that is why I identify so closely with David. He was bipolar just like me! I really don't know if it is bipolar as much as it is that I am just so tender. I feel everything around me. I feel everyone's emotions and am moved by them. It is exhausting. But, like David I will dance with all my might. Naked, if I must (eeek)! I abandon all when I worship, just like David. But I also get distracted easily just like David.
God, today, be in my day. Be all around my day. Be at the beginning and end of my day. Most of all, let me see You today! Saturate my day so much that I get to see You in it. Have Your way with my day. Today I call you lover and not master, come be with me my love. I am waiting....